The worst things to have in life are expectations. They lead to nothing but disappointment.
Needless to say, I had expectations going to the beach. I expected everything to be hunky-dory and for the most part it was. We had wonderful weather. The ladies were well behaved, not too whiney when their schedule was broken, and bedtime wasn't too much of a hassle. I didn't expected to get much shopping done, I am a very indecisive person. I did decide, that if I am truly going to stop work, that I should spring into
action with regards to my christmas shopping! The mound slowly growing in my closet is exciting me!
One of my only expectations, aside from too much food, was to take pictures. Lots of glorious pictures of the ladies, of us, and as a family. That didn't happen. Not at all. In the expectation of taking pictures is the hidden expectation of help from DH. Not even so much help, but compliance. I feel that as the other adult in the group, he could and should help. That's not to say he wasn't a help, he very much was.
He sent the girls on their first quarter ride.
But I expected my requests to be honored, whether direct stated or implied, and they weren't. I should mention that neither DH or I enjoy having our pictures taken and unlike
some people we won't make the effort for better shots. (Sorry, I had to Marcia!) I do feel that family pictures are important. Neither of us have many and I would like for our girls to have more than random snapshots. I clearly have the snapshots covered.
What hurt me most of all is what perceived as his lack of support. He didn't support me in my desire to take pictures. He didn't support family pictures in general. In fact he out right ignored two photo shoots, I used the term loosely, and ushered us along to our next destination.
Does the elephant ride need to be shackled?
The ladies dined on fruit and cheese.
Best cheese and I have yet to ask them what exactly it is!
I snapped him leaving after a photo shoot was thwarted by the photomiser.
I assumed taking pictures near crowds might have been putting him off so I pushed for a nice family walk at the state park. Early on a Sunday morning at a beach park would leave us virtually secluded. I let the girls have snack and mentally marked spots on our way through for the walk back. However as we walked back, he first huffed, then didn't hear me, and I lost it. I gave up.
I was hurt.
I was crushed.
I cried.
I literally walked ahead and cried. Then I cried some more because I felt like a baby crying over pictures. What I was crying over was the lack of support, but I guess I shouldn't export support for my hobbies. It's like it's my profession...
I did get a picture of a heron?
Apparently I was "cold" for the rest of the day. Then again, I decided to take action.
I offered to meet up with family for a family picture. We loosely coordinated in black/white/gray and I made the best of it. I only did one shot, and hoped for the best. If you keep it small, you don't notice it's not focused. For some reason I went with my broken lens. 10 point there. So all the "editing" to make it look sharper get leads to rigid pixelation. But it's a shot none the less, and one I can use for a christmas present since my mother is legal blind!
Yes, I made DH get on the ground and he is probably still rumbling about it.
While I hope to get out and try again with my better lens, I'm not sure that will actually happen. I had to pull teeth for this one so trying for one with my in-laws may push DH over the edge. I'm sad he doesn't seem to support me in this, so maybe I'll just focus on the ladies and myself from now on.
I won't let this totally color my weekend blah though.
We did enjoy some lovely time together as a family. We stuffed our faces full of yummy food! We ate local and I found a delicious, AND THICK, winter sweater in my favorite color-gray! I'm thrilled to be crossing things off my Christmas shopping list. I really need to get on this job quitting thing because if every weekend could be so family oriented, I would be a much happier person.
So how was your weekend??
Tomorrow-the shower recap!